Enjoy.
Overcome Depression
Major depressive disorder also known as MDD is a mental disorder characterized by low mood accompanied by low self-esteem, and by loss of interest or pleasure in any enjoyable activities.
Do Not Panic!
Panic attacks are periods of intense fear that appear suddenly and of relatively brief duration. Many, who experience a panic attack, mostly for the first time, fear they are having a heart attack.
Social Phobia Common Anxiety Disorder
Social anxiety involves an intense feeling of fear, worry and discomfort in social situations and especially situations that are unfamiliar or in which you will be watched or evaluated by others.
Break Free
It’s time to for you to fight back and break free. It is more than possible for you to change your life around, to relax, to have fun, to laugh to be cool.
Take Control
With or without cipralex, you must always fight to gain back control of your life.
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
Like Humans Do...
Enjoy.
Top 10 Personal Growth Quotes
Something to wonder about...
"The only journey is the journey within."
Rainer Maria Rilke
"What progress, you ask, have I made? I have begun to be a friend to myself."
Hecato, Greek philosopher
"Change and growth take place when a person has risked himself and dares to become involved with experimenting with his own life. "
Herbert Otto
"The way to gain a good reputation is to endeavor to be what you desire to appear. "
Socrates
"The searching-out and thorough investigation of truth ought to be the primary study of man."
Cicero
"Know thyself means this, that you get acquainted with what you know, and what you can do."
Menander
"If you have an hour, will you not improve that hour, instead of idling it away?"
Lord Chesterfield
"Follow your honest convictions, and stay strong."
William Thackeray
"Fear less, hope more, eat less, chew more, whine less, breathe more, talk less, say more, hate less, love more, and good things will be yours."
Swedish Prover
"A man who finds no satisfaction in himself will seek for it in vain elsewhere. "
La Rochefoucauld
Rainer Maria Rilke
"What progress, you ask, have I made? I have begun to be a friend to myself."
Hecato, Greek philosopher
"Change and growth take place when a person has risked himself and dares to become involved with experimenting with his own life. "
Herbert Otto
"The way to gain a good reputation is to endeavor to be what you desire to appear. "
Socrates
"The searching-out and thorough investigation of truth ought to be the primary study of man."
Cicero
"Know thyself means this, that you get acquainted with what you know, and what you can do."
Menander
"If you have an hour, will you not improve that hour, instead of idling it away?"
Lord Chesterfield
"Follow your honest convictions, and stay strong."
William Thackeray
"Fear less, hope more, eat less, chew more, whine less, breathe more, talk less, say more, hate less, love more, and good things will be yours."
Swedish Prover
"A man who finds no satisfaction in himself will seek for it in vain elsewhere. "
La Rochefoucauld
Top 5 Inspirational Quotes
Wayne Gretzky
You miss 100% of the shots you don't take.
Try not to become a man of success but a man of value.
If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put foundations under them.
Experience is the child of thought, and thought is the child of action.
Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.
Monday, February 06, 2012
Notes to self in Pictures
Hello,
just wanted to share those photos with you guys :)
enjoy
and check this one out, lol
:-)
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Cipralex and Pregnancy
I’m getting married soon, and you know how it is… we start thinking about bringing kids to the world… that made me bit worried because of the cipralex I’m taking…
I’ve talked to my doc about this issue, he said not to worry, he said a woman can also take cipralex while she’s pregnant, before and after – and it got no interaction or interference with the cipralex treatment.
Which is good news :-) but I’m planning to decrease the dosage to 15 mg in couple of days as soon as I’ll run out of the 20 mg pills package.
Just wanted to share that info with you guys, also I’m waiting for feedback about the new blog design J
Take care.
Monday, January 30, 2012
Cipralex Blog Design Update
Hello again my friends, I got many emails about the previous design of the blog was a bit...problematic - well it was hard to read with all the black colors around.
Anyways I had couple of free hours so I've decided to upgrade the blog design a bit, do let me know what you think about it and if there's anything you want me to add.
Enjoy.
Monday, January 16, 2012
Dear Jared
Jared said...
I've read a few of your different blog posts, and they've really helped me stick with it. I've been taking Cipralex since mid November (I think it was November 28th) . . . and just tonight I've been thinking more about ending my own life. I've been upped from 10mg to 20mg about 1 month ago, but I'm not feeling any effects at all. No side-effects, but no effects at all either. I'm not sure what to do . . . I have an appointment with my doctor next month but I'm not sure what can be done at this stage. Any advice?
I understood from your comment that you’ve been taking cipralex since the end of November, lets call it December until today, which is less than two months? Correct me if I’m wrong on this…
Cipralex need some time to do its thing, and sometimes it can take up to three months until you’ll feel something. So keep at it and follow your doc orders.
What if I told you that in couple of months you’ll feel way better, what if I’ve told you that your life and feelings can be so different you’ll hard recognize them, what if I told you that everything is going to be just super in couple of months, would you still want to miss that?
You haven’t wrote much about who you are, what you do in life? How old are you? And who’s important to you in your life… I’d like to hear more about that so I can help you more.
You also wrote you’ve increased from 10mg to 20mg – I assume you’ll start feeling something very soon, I wouldn’t quit now anyways, you’ve already too some solid good serious steps in a good direction, give it some time.
Few things to consider:
- If cipralex doesn’t work for (but first you have to continue taking it until your doc says) there are many other good alternative meds that can work for you and I’m certain you’ll doc will offer them and discuss it with you, if one thing doesn’t work – it doesn’t mean the other won’t work either, there are so many options, don’t lose hope.
- There are many other spiritual things you can do, to put your faith at something, something that’s important to you, that will help you keep going.
- No matter how low and down you feel right now, look at me I was there too and today I’m engaged to beautiful women, and I’m happy and cool 99% of the time. If it was possible for me it’s possible for you too.
- Read the comments of other friends in this blog – you are not alone; we are all in the same boat just with different distance from shore. (That was a good metaphor wasn’t it?)
- Another thing I’ve learned is that you have to think outside the box, this sentence got a deep meaning I won’t get into that right now but, you should try and learn about the medical point of view of things, read books and watch films about psychology, fear, depression, NLP, coping with depression etc’, this is one of the things I did in the beginning and it really helped me too.
- ALWAYS PUT THINGS IN PROPORTION – if it’s hard for you to do this – just turn on CNN or any other news station :) …
- Talk about it – talk about how you feel with your doc, with your friends or family or me, but keep the talking rolling – its important in a sub conscious level too, that will help you find solutions too.
- Get a hobby, find something that you like doing, I for example started building things from wood, so I really like woodworking and it clears your mind.
- NEVER GIVE UP – remember this- we’re all going to die eventually anyway, so what do you have to lose?! Keep trying and trying and trying until you get yourself to where you want to.
- Eat, drink, run, laugh, spend time with friends and family, do things you enjoy doing, love.
Ok Jared, hope this help you get back in the right direction.
Your life is a prize – and that’s how you should treat them.
Take care
Until next time.
Thursday, January 05, 2012
Day 435: Happy New Year, Dreams, Hesitations and Decreasing from 20mg to 15mg
Hello again my friends, I hope you’re all doing better and better with every day. I’ve been reading your comments so keep it up, it helps us all when you share your experience and opinions, and besides the more users visit the blog the more normal I feel :-)
I wish you all a
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
A year free of Anxiety, Depression & Panic attacks.
A year of better, happier and healthier life and state of mind
I want to begin this post with addressing the dreams issue, first because I said I would in previously, secondly because many of you talked about it in your comments and lastly because I like dreams!
Dreams are cool, at least for me, I guess it depends on how you look at it and how aware you are of yourself and your brain. The way I choose to look at it is as if the dreams are here to adjust and digest all the things that happened in the day-time. We are barely aware of the amount of information our brain is bombarded with since the second we wake up.
So I try to make the most of it, and it’s fun too.
Few Things to consider:
1. Try controlling the general subject of the dream and make it a positive subject – this can be done by thinking about a positive thing or general positive idea just before you go to sleep.
2. Hypnotize yourself before falling a sleep – this is a lot of fun and its very relaxing, you can simply count from 10 to 1 slowly with positive suggestions about relaxation and calm fun dreaming. (it works guys)
3. If you want to make things even easier or if you have bad dreams - you can download any nlp or hypnosis sound files and listen to them before you go to sleep.
4. Try listening to good relaxing music at night time.
5. Make sure you’re comfortable in your bed.
6. Replace your pillows, blanket and sheets to new ones.
7. Record your rational self on tape and listen to it while you fall asleep.
8. Get a pet
9. Hug your gf/bf
Hope this help.
But the most important thing is to remember that dreams are fun and they are a tool for you to use for your own benefit.
I’ve met with my doc yesterday, we’re now talking about decreasing the dosage, haven’t done that yet, but I’m planning on starting with that next week. I’ll update you about that.
Comments and the comments:
You can find answers to many of your questions in previous posts too.
Take care, I will keep updating you.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Day 419: Some comments Some Answers
Hello again my friends, and a worm welcome to the newcomers.
It’s now day number 419… wow… that’s a lot of days... and a lot of changes too...
So what going on… really? everything is good ,i cant remember the last time i had a real panic attack or depression...no side effects or anything like that ...that's nice...real nice.
"unfound said...Im afraid of taking the drug I was prescribed it, I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and am dreadfully afraid this drug I will need till my dying death. There are ups and downs in getting into what I call my states, my episodes, creativity ensues but in those moments I feel like the world could end and it would be perfect... What were your major side effects, did the drug make you more alert? I am also in the process of being assessed by a specialist for Adult ADHD, It is highly likely that I do have it!"Hey, i just want you to know that what you wrote about how perfect it will be if the world could just end is something that we ALL say to ourselves from time to time... i know i sure did and meant it.
i can assure you that all of us here (fellow readers) said that at least once and really meant it.
let me say this... if i could take time back... i would and take the pill in a much earlier stage in my life, that would save me a lot of hassle for sure... about the side effects - just read the previous posts from day 1 and you'll be able to read exactly how it was for me... in a larger perspective the side effects are no match for the upside you get from this change in your life.
"Great blog! I've been on the 10mg since October 12. I suffer from anxiety when I try to go to sleep. I lay there thinking and waiting for the noises and think about tons of other things.I now cannot attend a party I wanted to go to. Does it take longer than 6 weeks? I'm all for trying this if it eventually works, but I'm starting to get a little edgy now."
first of all thank you, now about the 6 weeks - you need to keep at it and wait, it can take couple of weeks longer - but it worth it. don't screw it up and stop in the middle. congratulations on your new job and try to take things in perspective, there are many tips I've posted before you can read and help yourself... be patience... now about that party... how come you can't go? you can and should...look at it as a good experiment to check out if cipralex did something or not. and try to have some fun!
Melissa P - just wanted to thank you for your comments and for helping people and sharing your experiences to help us all :-)
I've noticed many of you talked about the sleeping and dreams issues... i will address that on a separate post.
thank you and in case I don't see ya, good afternoon , good evening, and good night!
Monday, November 21, 2011
Day 390: Forget and Rewind
What make us forget? Forget about how it used to be and just live the moment like that’s how it’s always been… I wonder a lot about that lately…
I’ve notice that lately I forgot that I’m on cipralex, I forgot that I used to experience panic attack, depression, flushes and stress…daily stress… on every silly little thing that happens…sometimes even on events that never took place…I guess it was the old “what if…” days…
You probably wonder why I am bringing this up, the reason for that is that in recent days I noticed I just forget that I’m cipralex and I act as if I’ve always been like I am now…
That’s good… but sometimes I also forget to take the pill on time…missed a day or two lately…
But it’s interesting … maybe it’s a sign I soon won’t need those pills…
Meanwhile I’m sticking to my plan and to the doc instructions…
I’m happy and stable…
It’s now been 390 days I’m the pill… and I’m not regretting it at all!
Probably was one of the smartest decisions I took in my life.
Take care now, I’m reading your comments always and it’s great to see you guys help each other.
I will post more soon.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
OMG: A Year with Cipralex
Hello again my friends and thank you for sharing your insights and experiences, your comments are helping many other people in the situation, so keep commenting, sharing and getting better.
Last night I was laying in my bed looking at my girlfriend sleeping while she hugs me, there was a good breeze coming from the window and the weather was just fine, then I realized again, wow, what a change…amazing…just amazing….(I mumbled that to myself) what wouldn’t I do a year ago to be in that position, everything was good, everything was awesome…
The change is dramatic and so noticeable…but sometimes when you’re inside something you don’t notice things… and it’s really important to stop – from time to time and realize what you achieved so far...
And honestly I think I’ve changed my life around, for the better.
Here’s a question I got for you guys, what have changed so far in your life? When was this moment when you said to yourself… things changed.
I’ve met with my doc got prescription for the next three months… all went smooth…meanwhile I’ll stick with cipralex…see what happens next…
Who knows? Maybe I’ll even get married. Lol.
Cheers and take care and keep helping each other.
Until next time
Sunday, October 02, 2011
Day 340... Have things really changed?
Friends,
Hope you’re all still in the game and getting better with each day.
It’s been a while since I last wrote something, been little busy lately…
It’s now day 340, soon I’ll be a year on cipralex…it’s time to stop for a second and appreciate what happened this year, how things changed, how my way of thinking and looking at things change – and it did…sure did.
Wow, I’m amazed at how easy it is to get use to things, to get use to feeling normal…to get use to not get use to think too much about things, and just flow.
A year ago…maybe a little bit less, I was so depressed, lonely and living on the edge, in this daily fear on everything I guess… I use to get panic attacks every single day…sometimes even couple times a day.
I wouldn’t go out, I would do everything in my power to avoid any social events and meeting new people was a nightmare…sometimes even walking down the street was a damn project…it’s amazing…just amazing…I can hardly remember how it felt like…which is good, very good. I now walk the streets, meet and interact with new people, I feel safe…I feel I can trust myself.
I have a beautiful girlfriend, good friends; I love my family and most important of all… I guess I made peace with myself… the improvement and changes I’ve going through all this time on cipralex are overwhelming sometimes…
I use to complicate things too much, think too much and I used to feel like I’m not in control…
I always knew, even back then…that I was stuck inside a bubble…or maybe a cell, a prison cell which I build for years…guess how that makes you feel…knowing you put yourself there, knowing your inside a bubble…but just can’t get out of it…
I guess it’s important for me to stop for a second…stop and appreciate myself for doing this for myself… I guess this is one of the most important things I’ve done for me ever…
I do not regret my decision to take cipralex…it was a hard call to make but I made it…and for that I’m grateful too… things are working out, soon I’m meeting my psychiatrist again, see what he have to say…he will probably suggest to continue three more months… but it doesn’t matter, taking cipralex is a very small price to pay for the benefits of rebuilding your life…rebuilding yourself.
Btw I can now say that all the side effects are totally 100% gone, so the only hassle is to take the pill once a day…
I still haven’t told anyone about me taking this pill…and I’m not going to…at least not in the near future…
I know some of you disagree and say its as if I’m judging my friends or gf, but I’m not…I just think that I’m not ready for that yet…maybe society isn’t ready too…
It’s funny; yesterday I met my friend new girlfriend…sounds silly right? Today it is….no big deal….i haven’t really thought about it much…just didn’t care…:) a year ago I would think about it so much I get panic attack all day…just because I’m meeting someone I don’t know…
Things change – remember that folks, sometimes they change so fast, you don’t even notice.
Take care now
Thursday, September 08, 2011
Day 316: more questions...more answers :)
Some quesiton you guys asked in the comments: Hi doll khan, when to stop...? thats a good question... I guess the answet is when you feel that you can... wait couple of months more and gradually you can stop... but ask your doc. thats why you pay him anyway :-)
rose khan - "awsome blog just tell me some times i feeel numbness and lightness in my head does the same happens to u??" yes it does but I hardly notice it anymore..with time it will go away totally...
Hi Melissa P, Its great to hear you're doing something about it, thats a big thing, good luck and update us on how it goes...I'm sure you're already started to feel the change in your life... Hi Susan, I realy think you should consult your doctor, I think 40mg is a big dose of cipralex... maybe too big... if cipralex doesn't work for you, you should over-dose it just switch to another pill that will work. do not take so many pills without consulting your doc... did he recommended that? Stay tuned... soon a new post will come :)
rose khan - "awsome blog just tell me some times i feeel numbness and lightness in my head does the same happens to u??" yes it does but I hardly notice it anymore..with time it will go away totally...
Hi Melissa P, Its great to hear you're doing something about it, thats a big thing, good luck and update us on how it goes...I'm sure you're already started to feel the change in your life... Hi Susan, I realy think you should consult your doctor, I think 40mg is a big dose of cipralex... maybe too big... if cipralex doesn't work for you, you should over-dose it just switch to another pill that will work. do not take so many pills without consulting your doc... did he recommended that? Stay tuned... soon a new post will come :)
Sunday, August 21, 2011
You Asked...I Answer
this is a comment I got lately with good value in it...so I decided to post it:
Hi there, and thanks for that question I guess it may be on many people minds...
Yes I'm on 20mg cipralex in those day, and yes that's as high as it goes.
your question is smart, you think about the future...that's a smart thing to do, I'll tell you what I'm doing:
you're very right - humans do develop a tolerance to any type of drug eventually.
however - humans can also develop "routines" - what do I mean by that? well first of all I would recommend reading some books about how our brain works.. its important for understanding what you need to do.
I suffered from social phobia, anxiety, panic attacks and depression...(sometimes all mixed together... :) ...)
what I'm doing right now(while i'm cipralex) is dealing with, I'm being social and putting myself in many situations i would normally avoid, and i do it again, and again and again...until eventually I start to like it and not think about it at all... so... I hope you're getting this, it important...if you "DEAL" with the situation or the thing that freaks you out again and again and again...eventually as you said:"humans develop a tolerance to any type of drug" and as you know the human brain is the biggest fastest drug lab on this planet...
freaking out or getting panic attacks in situation is happening because our brain produce certain drugs that does that... once you change that... you change your own way of thinking of things and you don't need to take cipralex....
what I'm saying is- if you take cipralex to deal with a problem... than use this time to attack your problem... if you're scared of the darkness...don't turn on the light while you have flashlight in your hand....I hope you got that metaphor...
good luck!
Great blog... im gunna link it in one of the forums I visit often. Cipralex has also changed my life in so many ways, it's really allowed me to get back to being ME. This question is directed to the writer of this blog: I understand that you are on 20 mg right now, which is the highest dose. What do you plan on doing once that dose starts to wear off or gradually becomes ineffective? (humans develop a tolerance to any type of drug eventually). Since you are kind of "maxed out" right now, do you see yourself switching over to paxil in the future? Have you given this any thought?
Hi there, and thanks for that question I guess it may be on many people minds...
Yes I'm on 20mg cipralex in those day, and yes that's as high as it goes.
your question is smart, you think about the future...that's a smart thing to do, I'll tell you what I'm doing:
you're very right - humans do develop a tolerance to any type of drug eventually.
however - humans can also develop "routines" - what do I mean by that? well first of all I would recommend reading some books about how our brain works.. its important for understanding what you need to do.
I suffered from social phobia, anxiety, panic attacks and depression...(sometimes all mixed together... :) ...)
what I'm doing right now(while i'm cipralex) is dealing with, I'm being social and putting myself in many situations i would normally avoid, and i do it again, and again and again...until eventually I start to like it and not think about it at all... so... I hope you're getting this, it important...if you "DEAL" with the situation or the thing that freaks you out again and again and again...eventually as you said:"humans develop a tolerance to any type of drug" and as you know the human brain is the biggest fastest drug lab on this planet...
freaking out or getting panic attacks in situation is happening because our brain produce certain drugs that does that... once you change that... you change your own way of thinking of things and you don't need to take cipralex....
what I'm saying is- if you take cipralex to deal with a problem... than use this time to attack your problem... if you're scared of the darkness...don't turn on the light while you have flashlight in your hand....I hope you got that metaphor...
good luck!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Day 295: Cipralex and Antibiotics...and You
Hello friends,
I hope everything is good with you guys and again, thanks for sharing your thoughts and asking questions in the comments, seems like we can really help each other.
Couple of days ago my girlfriend had to take this medicine for some kind of infection of bacteria or something like that... anyways her doctor recommended told her that I should take it too.
So now, I need to take this antibiotics pills, well at least its just for one day, but its about 4 pills of 250 mg each...so I had to research about it before thinking about taking them.
The pill she was given called metronidazole, basically it’s an antibiotic medication.
So the question came... can I take antibiotics while on cipralex? Is it safe to keep taking cipralex while take 1000mg of antibiotics in one day? (Good and important question...)
Well after checking and checking...it seems like it is safe and its ok. I haven't found any information that suggest otherwise... the only thing that is important is not to drink alcohol... but that’s not a problem...
I've also read that some research shows that it actually enhances the cipralex effects... but nothing against taking them together...
So.. here we've learned something, I will update you of course how the combination effected me...but I do not expect anything dramatic.
Now I want to answer some of the questions and stuff you guys wrote in the comments, I think some of this information is really valuable for people who take cipralex or for people who wants to understand people that take it.
oh, and besides that side effects of cipralex are long forgotten and I’m happy and in control. My girlfriend moved in with me and things are getting serious in our relationship which is good too :)
and the comments:
"I'm on day 7 today & i haven't really noticed any changes..." - give it some time... it usually takes a month for you to actually feel something...
Todd - "you were my inspiration to have the courage to take this medication " - thank you so much for writing this :)
Jari - Hi, it’s awesome that you're from Finland :) its great to see that we're all over the place, lol, yes I too seroxat many years ago but haven't finished the treatment properly...
Missy - I understand your situation... if you ask me... don't tell him unless his perception and level of understanding people like us is high... otherwise no good will come from this... someone who never was in our situation will never really understand...
Lana - if you were given cipralex, you probably need it... so give it a try for at least couple of months, remember you can stop anytime... its effects are great... but it’s not such a powerful drug that you won’t control yourself or change... it will just ease your mind that’s all.. You’ll still be lana :)
Cindy - I couldn't agree more, wow 5 years... make sure you come off it slowwwwwwly as possible, good luck and I’m totally with you with the "personally I do not think they need to know but hey that is my call" :) take care and let us know how it went...
I hope everything is good with you guys and again, thanks for sharing your thoughts and asking questions in the comments, seems like we can really help each other.
Couple of days ago my girlfriend had to take this medicine for some kind of infection of bacteria or something like that... anyways her doctor recommended told her that I should take it too.
So now, I need to take this antibiotics pills, well at least its just for one day, but its about 4 pills of 250 mg each...so I had to research about it before thinking about taking them.
The pill she was given called metronidazole, basically it’s an antibiotic medication.
So the question came... can I take antibiotics while on cipralex? Is it safe to keep taking cipralex while take 1000mg of antibiotics in one day? (Good and important question...)
Well after checking and checking...it seems like it is safe and its ok. I haven't found any information that suggest otherwise... the only thing that is important is not to drink alcohol... but that’s not a problem...
I've also read that some research shows that it actually enhances the cipralex effects... but nothing against taking them together...
So.. here we've learned something, I will update you of course how the combination effected me...but I do not expect anything dramatic.
Now I want to answer some of the questions and stuff you guys wrote in the comments, I think some of this information is really valuable for people who take cipralex or for people who wants to understand people that take it.
oh, and besides that side effects of cipralex are long forgotten and I’m happy and in control. My girlfriend moved in with me and things are getting serious in our relationship which is good too :)
and the comments:
"I'm on day 7 today & i haven't really noticed any changes..." - give it some time... it usually takes a month for you to actually feel something...
Todd - "you were my inspiration to have the courage to take this medication " - thank you so much for writing this :)
Jari - Hi, it’s awesome that you're from Finland :) its great to see that we're all over the place, lol, yes I too seroxat many years ago but haven't finished the treatment properly...
Missy - I understand your situation... if you ask me... don't tell him unless his perception and level of understanding people like us is high... otherwise no good will come from this... someone who never was in our situation will never really understand...
Lana - if you were given cipralex, you probably need it... so give it a try for at least couple of months, remember you can stop anytime... its effects are great... but it’s not such a powerful drug that you won’t control yourself or change... it will just ease your mind that’s all.. You’ll still be lana :)
Cindy - I couldn't agree more, wow 5 years... make sure you come off it slowwwwwwly as possible, good luck and I’m totally with you with the "personally I do not think they need to know but hey that is my call" :) take care and let us know how it went...
Monday, July 25, 2011
Day 272: Changing Your Mind
I don’t know why but in a way today is a special day for me. What made it special is you guys that visit my blog, read, write and interact. I've read the latest comments from you guys, seems like we're all in this together, it made me feel even better, it made me go back in time and think about how much I've been through… and it’s a lot, its amazing, If you would told me that this is where I'll be today before I've started treating myself with cipralex I wouldn't believe you for sure.
Taking cipralex was a very hard decision to make. But what convinced me most was something that an old man once told me…no guys he wasn't Chinese…sorry :)
Anyways, he said, sometimes "…to solve a serious problem – you have to think outside of the box… " – sounds good but how do you get outside your own mind? How can you trick yourself? At the first time I actually agreed (with myself) to go for it and try this drug, this sentence was echoing in my head… this is exactly how you think outside the box, get out of your ordinary routine way of thinking about things and change it.
I know not all of you know what I'm talking about, I want you guys to watch this lecture,
It opened my mind to many things…
It by Joe Dispenza, the video titled: "Evolve Your Brain- The Science of Changing Your Mind"
I know you'll enjoy it and learn a lot.
In terms of side-effects...I truly have none...feeling good since I've switched to 20 mg... doc said to keep at it at least for the next three months...than we'll see what happens...
Talk to you soon guys, thanks for what you write!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Day 265: Gotta be some good times ahead
Hello my friends,
been very busy lately, but all in all better...busy and better...maybe more better than busy... :)
I had one day in which i was very very angry, had no patience to anything or anybody, also had some arguments with lots of people that day...
but it seems like a distant memory now... no panic attacks, no depression, no pressure, dealing with everything ok, relationship with my girlfriend is great, everything seems to run smoothly... we do have our ups and downs, but its ok, the ups starting to be more than than the downs... we moved in together(something that would normally make me panic and think too much), also met her family, friends, etc... been present in many stressing situations, but it seems like everything went ok :)
I'm still on the pill...(no kidding...) its 265 days now... I'm meeting my doc tomorrow...see what he will say... I still avoid certain situations or try to.. but much less than before...no regrets about taking cipralex... meanwhile seems like it was the smartest thing to do.
I still haven't told my gf about this...maybe i never will, thank god I got you guys.
take care,
I will post more soon.
been very busy lately, but all in all better...busy and better...maybe more better than busy... :)
I had one day in which i was very very angry, had no patience to anything or anybody, also had some arguments with lots of people that day...
but it seems like a distant memory now... no panic attacks, no depression, no pressure, dealing with everything ok, relationship with my girlfriend is great, everything seems to run smoothly... we do have our ups and downs, but its ok, the ups starting to be more than than the downs... we moved in together(something that would normally make me panic and think too much), also met her family, friends, etc... been present in many stressing situations, but it seems like everything went ok :)
I'm still on the pill...(no kidding...) its 265 days now... I'm meeting my doc tomorrow...see what he will say... I still avoid certain situations or try to.. but much less than before...no regrets about taking cipralex... meanwhile seems like it was the smartest thing to do.
I still haven't told my gf about this...maybe i never will, thank god I got you guys.
take care,
I will post more soon.
Monday, May 23, 2011
A moment of seriousness
And now a moment of seriousness
How many pills must a men swallow down
before he can say he's OK,
and how many chills must a man feel inside
before he can say they are gone...
and how much weight must a man gain or lose
before the side effects are gone...
The answer my friend is blowing in the wind...
How many pills must a men swallow down
before he can say he's OK,
and how many chills must a man feel inside
before he can say they are gone...
and how much weight must a man gain or lose
before the side effects are gone...
The answer my friend is blowing in the wind...
Day 208, I know its No Secret...
Hello my friends, and thank you all for the feedback and comments and all the experiences you're sharing with me, keep doing that - I'm reading all of it and appreciate it.
As I've mentioned in early posts, I keep the fact that I'm taking cipralex to my self... Maybe that's one of the reasons I'm sharing this information with you guys,
In a way you're all my best friends :)
Taking cipralex for people that know what it really is - is no big deal, and this pill is so popular that sometimes I think half of the world is on it :) ,
however I don't know if I've mentioned it before but I'm an CEO of a small company and it will really make the people I'm "leading" feel weird if they knew I'm on cipralex.
and its hard to keep a secret... so I've just decided to keep that info for my self.
I know..I know...the best thing is just to be open about it and not give a @#$@ , but I can't do that, because most of the people that never tried it...
have a certain look on people that did...or do take it.
and they do look or think about you differently once they know that... so for the time being I think this information will stay only between us.
My girl and I are back together for couple of weeks now... but sometimes it feels as if we were always together...
she got some problems too... she gets sad sometimes or nervous... the funny thing is that I'm the one that always cheer her up and help her get back on her feet again...
which makes it even harder for me to reveal the "Secret" :), think about it for a sec, one minute I'm telling her how she should take things easy...
while I got the help of cipralex...my shrink...and you guys...
As I've mentioned in early posts, I keep the fact that I'm taking cipralex to my self... Maybe that's one of the reasons I'm sharing this information with you guys,
In a way you're all my best friends :)
Taking cipralex for people that know what it really is - is no big deal, and this pill is so popular that sometimes I think half of the world is on it :) ,
however I don't know if I've mentioned it before but I'm an CEO of a small company and it will really make the people I'm "leading" feel weird if they knew I'm on cipralex.
and its hard to keep a secret... so I've just decided to keep that info for my self.
I know..I know...the best thing is just to be open about it and not give a @#$@ , but I can't do that, because most of the people that never tried it...
have a certain look on people that did...or do take it.
and they do look or think about you differently once they know that... so for the time being I think this information will stay only between us.
My girl and I are back together for couple of weeks now... but sometimes it feels as if we were always together...
she got some problems too... she gets sad sometimes or nervous... the funny thing is that I'm the one that always cheer her up and help her get back on her feet again...
which makes it even harder for me to reveal the "Secret" :), think about it for a sec, one minute I'm telling her how she should take things easy...
while I got the help of cipralex...my shrink...and you guys...
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Day 196: Breaking Up, Getting Back Together and 20 MG Cipralex
My dear friends, first of all I want to thank you all again for your comments and emails,
I read them all and they make me smile and get more energy to keep posting and telling you all how I am, I'm happy that we help each other and that you help other people in the comments - I notice that and I appreciate it.
Now for some updates, You must be wondering what I've been up to...
Well I had some rough times with my girl friend, and we broke up for like a week, its seems like we were together for years....and its just three months, I'm happy I haven't told her anything about cipralex, its not the right time, and its pointless to share it with someone you're not 100% sure she's gona stick around.
Anyways, the day we broke up I had a meeting with my shrink, I haven't planned that, but this is what happened, so I went to the meeting, he said I look sad...I told him its because I just broke up with my girlfriend and that i'm still feeling better than before...never the less he said he want us to increase the dosage to 20 MG...after a while...of talking...I said OK.
So now i'm 20 MG, there's a difference, and a few days after the meeting my x girlfriend
want to get back together...I'm a bit confused but i'm doing ok.
I haven't had any side effects for a while now and I'm aint scared of anything, No panic attacks and nothing like that...
will update more soon
take care
and thank for writing...
I read them all and they make me smile and get more energy to keep posting and telling you all how I am, I'm happy that we help each other and that you help other people in the comments - I notice that and I appreciate it.
Now for some updates, You must be wondering what I've been up to...
Well I had some rough times with my girl friend, and we broke up for like a week, its seems like we were together for years....and its just three months, I'm happy I haven't told her anything about cipralex, its not the right time, and its pointless to share it with someone you're not 100% sure she's gona stick around.
Anyways, the day we broke up I had a meeting with my shrink, I haven't planned that, but this is what happened, so I went to the meeting, he said I look sad...I told him its because I just broke up with my girlfriend and that i'm still feeling better than before...never the less he said he want us to increase the dosage to 20 MG...after a while...of talking...I said OK.
So now i'm 20 MG, there's a difference, and a few days after the meeting my x girlfriend
want to get back together...I'm a bit confused but i'm doing ok.
I haven't had any side effects for a while now and I'm aint scared of anything, No panic attacks and nothing like that...
will update more soon
take care
and thank for writing...
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