Day 435: Happy New Year, Dreams, Hesitations and Decreasing from 20mg to 15mg

Hello again my friends, I hope you’re all doing better and better with every day. I’ve been reading your comments so keep it up, it helps us all when you share your experience and opinions, and besides the more users visit the blog the more normal I feel :-)

I wish you all a

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

A year free of Anxiety, Depression & Panic attacks.

A year of better, happier and healthier life and state of mind

I want to begin this post with addressing the dreams issue, first because I said I would in previously, secondly because many of you talked about it in your comments and lastly because I like dreams!

Dreams are cool, at least for me, I guess it depends on how you look at it and how aware you are of yourself and your brain. The way I choose to look at it is as if the dreams are here to adjust and digest all the things that happened in the day-time. We are barely aware of the amount of information our brain is bombarded with since the second we wake up.

So I try to make the most of it, and it’s fun too.

Few Things to consider:

1.       Try controlling the general subject of the dream and make it a positive subject – this can be done by thinking about a positive thing or general positive idea just before you go to sleep.

2.       Hypnotize yourself before falling a sleep – this is a lot of fun and its very relaxing, you can simply count from 10 to 1 slowly with positive suggestions about relaxation and calm fun dreaming. (it works guys)

3.       If you want to make things even easier or if you have bad dreams - you can download any nlp or hypnosis sound files and listen to them before you go to sleep.

4.       Try listening to good relaxing music at night time.

5.       Make sure you’re comfortable in your bed.

6.       Replace your pillows, blanket and sheets to new ones.

7.       Record your rational self on tape and listen to it while you fall asleep.

8.       Get a pet

9.       Hug your gf/bf

Hope this help.

But the most important thing is to remember that dreams are fun and they are a tool for you to use for your own benefit.

I’ve met with my doc yesterday, we’re now talking about decreasing the dosage, haven’t done that yet, but I’m planning on starting with that next week. I’ll update you about that.

Comments and the comments:

You can find answers to many of your questions in previous posts too.

Take care, I will keep updating you.

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Day 419: Some comments Some Answers

Hello again my friends, and a worm welcome to the newcomers.

It’s now day number 419… wow… that’s a lot of days... and a lot of changes too...

So what going on… really? everything is good ,i cant remember the last time i had a real panic attack or depression...no side effects or anything like that ...that's nice...real nice.

"unfound said...Im afraid of taking the drug I was prescribed it, I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and am dreadfully afraid this drug I will need till my dying death. There are ups and downs in getting into what I call my states, my episodes, creativity ensues but in those moments I feel like the world could end and it would be perfect... What were your major side effects, did the drug make you more alert? I am also in the process of being assessed by a specialist for Adult ADHD, It is highly likely that I do have it!"

Hey, i just want you to know that what you wrote about how perfect it will be if the world could just end is something that we ALL say to ourselves from time to time... i know i sure did and meant it.

i can assure you that all of us here (fellow readers)  said that at least once and really meant it.

let me say this... if i could take time back... i would and take the pill in a much earlier stage in my life, that would save me a lot of hassle for sure... about the side effects - just read the previous posts from day 1 and you'll be able to read exactly how it was for me... in a larger perspective the side effects are no match for the upside you get from this change in your life.

"Great blog! I've been on the 10mg since October 12. I suffer from anxiety when I try to go to sleep. I lay there thinking and waiting for the noises and think about tons of other things.I now cannot attend a party I wanted to go to. Does it take longer than 6 weeks? I'm all for trying this if it eventually works, but I'm starting to get a little edgy now."

first of all thank you, now about the 6 weeks - you need to keep at it and wait, it can take couple of weeks longer - but it worth it. don't screw it up and stop in the middle. congratulations on your new job and try to take things in perspective, there are many tips I've posted before you can read and help yourself... be patience... now about that party... how come you can't go? you can and should...look at it as a good experiment to check out if cipralex did something or not. and try to have some fun!

Melissa P - just wanted to thank you for your comments and for helping people and sharing your experiences to help us all :-)

I've noticed many of you talked about the sleeping and dreams issues... i will address that on a separate post.

thank you and in case I don't see ya, good afternoon , good evening, and good night!  

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Day 20 to 27 with cipralex...

i sleep a lot , still wake up tired , still not feeling good enough, but there is improvement, yesterday i had a panic attack suppressed....still felt it...i will wait until a month will pass , see if there's a major improvement...mean while its up and down, mostly down... my patience is running out, I'm getting restless and i want action now, come on already, I've notice i got anxious and can't wait no more , however i do feel better , or at least stronger and very pissed or angry at this thing that annoys me, very angry about it... so angry that i will start moving things to fix it , face it and deal with it until it will lower its face in shame.
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wOKe up OK, feeling OK, went to get some shiatsu was good, had nice talk also notice i said hi to this lady outside, something which i would normally wouldn't do, however i still felt kind of stressed or with low self esteem or what ever you want to call it just not comfortable enough...also had small anxiety or panic attack
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wOKe feeling good, had good dreams too, I'm feeling that i can set my focus on what i want now, its time to face my daemons! side effects almost gone...
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today i don't feel like reporting
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went out for a short walk with a friend, side effects almost gone totally, had a headache but i think i got a cold or something
today i went out and felt better in situation that usually i get nerves about, had few minor communications which went OK, which is awesome for start...i know its not much but its better than nothing and better than before...

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day 14, 15 and 16 with cipralex...

2 weeks now, i do feel a little change, but i cant say its dramatic, hopefully from tommarow i will... have been in the toilet for the 2nd day now, thats cant be good... just had a mild panic attack, i think, it was very restrained comparing with the old ones...met with some people went ok, didnt care too much, which was nice to feel totally ok infront of strangers...also went next to a girl that smelled really good, wanted to say something about it, almost did....but didnt...yet

woke up feeling little better today, even had the power to deal with a business meeting i initiated, which doesnt happen much lately, so its a good sign...still could sleep more...much more, i wake up tierd and sleepy, i do feel as if i just need to place my self in the right place and things will start rolling from one hand but from the other hand i feel as if im not prepared to deal with them...

feel so tired today, slept in the afternoon too, still could not get out of the house...dunno why... i've started working on my new pua project

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can't fall a sleep, can't wake up

had a bit hard time to fall a sleep and also had hard time waking up...

but streghing is fun, i think i notice some minor differences, but i'm still feeling stuck in terms of borders around me or something....side effects are minimal at this stage... in 2 days it will be 2 weeks, many said after two weeks the cipra start to kick in and you start to feel improvements...crossing my fingers and hoping for the best...just came back from the nlp, i've noticed i'm not getting the panic attack when the attention is on me, it was actually like a challenge i enjoyed facing....thats interesting....

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Day 10 on Cipralex, I feel sleepy all so sleepy...

woke up stretching with good feeling, but could continue to sleep more, feel bored...was very tierd slept in the afernoon, but havent done nothing today....cant seem to get the motivation to get my ass out of this house...at night i felt bit better, but still not where i think i should be considering....i should probably focus more on the minor/big changes that do happen, the way i communicate and less give a #@@@ about things that are silly to give a @@@ about...optimizem is king...

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Day 29 - Anxiety again?!

Feeling so tierd...its week number four already and I still cant say I feel much better, there is a change indeed but I'm just so tierd...
I feel as if I could sleep for months and months...ZZzzzz...Zzzzz...
all in all, I still have great hope for things to get better, I just have to...get a grip!

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