Day 265: Gotta be some good times ahead

Hello my friends,
been very busy lately, but all in all better...busy and better...maybe more better than busy... :)
I had one day in which i was very very angry, had no patience to anything or anybody, also had some arguments with lots of people that day...

but it seems like a distant memory now... no panic attacks, no depression, no pressure, dealing with everything ok, relationship with my girlfriend is great, everything seems to run smoothly... we do have our ups and downs, but its ok, the ups starting to be more than than the downs... we moved in together(something that would normally make me panic and think too much), also met her family, friends, etc... been present in many stressing situations, but it seems like everything went ok :)


I'm still on the pill...(no kidding...) its 265 days now... I'm meeting my doc tomorrow...see what he will say... I still avoid certain situations or try to.. but much less than before...no regrets about taking cipralex... meanwhile seems like it was the smartest thing to do.

I still haven't told my gf about this...maybe i never will, thank god I got you guys.

take care,
I will post more soon.

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Day 196: Breaking Up, Getting Back Together and 20 MG Cipralex

My dear friends, first of all I want to thank you all again for your comments and emails,
I read them all and they make me smile and get more energy to keep posting and telling you all how I am, I'm happy that we help each other and that you help other people in the comments - I notice that and I appreciate it.

Now for some updates, You must be wondering what I've been up to...
Well I had some rough times with my girl friend, and we broke up for like a week, its seems like we were together for years....and its just three months, I'm happy I haven't told her anything about cipralex, its not the right time, and its pointless to share it with someone you're not 100% sure she's gona stick around.

Anyways, the day we broke up I had a meeting with my shrink, I haven't planned that, but this is what happened, so I went to the meeting, he said I look sad...I told him its because I just broke up with my girlfriend and that i'm still feeling better than before...never the less he said he want us to increase the dosage to 20 MG...after a while...of talking...I said OK.

So now i'm 20 MG, there's a difference, and a few days after the meeting my x girlfriend
want to get back together...I'm a bit confused but i'm doing ok.

I haven't had any side effects for a while now and I'm aint scared of anything, No panic attacks and nothing like that...

will update more soon
take care
and thank for writing...

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Day 69 - Its time to increase the dosage

Have'nt posted in a while, seems like things are just a little but better, but also little bit the same...
My doctor advised me to increase my dosage to 20 mg a day instead of 10 mg I'm taking so far.
I lost control of life again, at least this is what I feel.
I've been prosponing the dosage increasement for a while now...
but I guess it is time.

will keep you posted.
Cheers.

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Day 56 - Quick update

Hello again,
have'nt posted in a while, lots of stuffs on my mind, and sometimes i just let myself do whatever i feel like, maybe even too much.
I talked to my shrink, she said i should pass to two pills per day, thats 20 mg, she said she does'nt think it effect me enough...

have'nt done so yet, but i will soon, I think in the next week or so.
I wish i could control my life more, I kinda got into a loop again.
but it just bother me less, or in a diffrent way.
anyways, will do something about it soon.
cheers!

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