Day 63 - 73 with 15mg cipralex: Attacking on all fronts

Hello everybody, here's a quick review of what happend these days...

* I talked to a girl on a bar(complete stranger...i would could never do that before)

* I started singing to myself a lot lately, specially in the morning... and in the shower...thats funny...isn't it?

* bought lots of cool clothes (dealt with lots of people doing that...so it was fun to see i can handle that)

* I feel bored, or maybe I just need a relationship...at night it was really boring it was raining so i was stuck at home...again...

* thinking about getting a girlfriend again...

* singing on the morning, i set a meeting with this company that makes matches between people...(I need love, not some sentimental prison)

* went to the meeting i set, when i came to the front door i had a kind of starting of panic attack but it was for like a milisecond than i just went right in and had fun. that was amazing that I could handle that, normally the pressure,anxiety and panic would be overwhelming...I developed some nice techniques to get my self to deal with all the issues that bother me, more about that in future posts...had an interview at the meeting with this guy, i think I made really good impression on him...

* thinking about one of the girls i run into in the shops... i should talk to her...

* its very cold lately , but i'm feeling better ,i'm starting to notice a change in the way i interact with people and all the things i used to worry about seem so far now...sometimes i cant even remember them sometimes

* went to the cinema and to drink something and had some people it was fun.

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Day 53: 100% of the focus is on the outside

what a day was today, I went out shopping with a friend, was awesome, found some great clothes, shoes etc', haven't finished with all the things I need yet, but its a huge step forward, some idiot mumbled a remark about my weight but i didn't care too much because I considered him to be an idiot, and there's no reason why should listen to idiots, so it bothered me for like couple of minutes maybe less,

than I forgot about it and went on having fun. got me new sunglasses too, usually I wouldn't dare stepping into those stores but it was awesome, in some stage I just didn't care any more...my mind was on different things totally, amazing, when I think about it now I 100% focused on the outside.

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The first time I felt agoraphobia social anxiety and panic attacks

First time I noticed something is really wrong was went I stepped into a grocery store and all of a sudden felt like I just had to get out of there, The stress levels went up, I started sweating, had problem breathing normally and my heart pounded like mad, I could not communicate with anyone, just the present of other people around me made my body react in the "fight or flight" response... that's what happened, and it was a stupid grocery store...
I felt bad, like I just want to avoid everyone and every place and just hide someplace...
for me that was the first time I felt something is seriously wrong...

Today, with cipralex, I can tell you I can go into places and just get into a "I don't care" mode, and just be myself... I don't know if you call it social phobia, agoraphobia or whatever but I know I just felt bad.,,

Cipralex helps really fast in these kind of situations...

but I had other issues on my mind too...still do...

Agoraphobia is almost gone totally and the anxiety almost gone too, social phobia and panic attacks are much more mild now, and I'm on 10 MG still... My doctor suggested we increase it to 15 MG soon, to see if I can terminate those thing totally...

I sure hope so, I will update you about it too, I hope you can learn and benefit from your loyal Ginny pig here ;)

*This is from wikipedia:
"Agoraphobia (from Greek ἀγορά, "marketplace"; and φόβος/φοβία, -phobia) is an anxiety disorder. Agoraphobia may arise by the fear of having a panic attack in a setting from which there is no perceived easy means of escape. Alternatively, social anxiety problems may also be an underlying cause"

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here's something maybe can explains how someone with panic attacks deals with situations

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Agoraphobia is it?

can't get out of the house, dunno why, maybe cause i dont have a real reason? or maybe cause i'm scared? wierd...took me ages to cu...singing a lot, also thinking in creative way it hink... but not doing anything with it, but considering that i have a situation of my bro wife, i guess im dealing with my emotions in a good restrained way.,.its day 9, got five more to go for the effect to take place...

mean while there are some improvements, some sideeffects but still got blockade with getting out there into the game, but i do have some good experiences with communication with out panicing which is good for start...now if i could only get out of this house....maybe i write a book or a script, or paint or something anything...anything

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